Does it ever happen that you have a flash of thoughts coming all at once and then the other second they are gone? You want to catch them but you simply cannot. Does it ever happen that you wish you had an audience to express yourself? Do you ever feel like missing a train, completely restless?
Well I don’t know about you, but I definitely felt it a while back. Although I am an extrovert teen, I could not simply understand my very own self. I used to get restless without a known reason, burst out into tears even. I tried getting hold of my thoughts but it simply ran down my control like the sand which slips off our hands. This being the cause I started losing out focus and concentration and nothing seemed to go right.
One thing I knew for sure was that it has to be me who will rescue me from this pit of darkness. However there had to be a source of light to guide me through. I tried out various ways to express myself, painting, sketching, boxing and what not! At the end, I just kept Anne Frank in mind and decided to maintain a diary.
Before writing my first letter in the diary, I gave it a name and made a vow. All the letters that I wrote in this diary should come out through the depths of my heart and not through a conscious and thoughtful mind. And this was the start of my diary writing journey. All that went into the diary were my inner most thoughts and emotions. Expressing them in the diary rescued me from the tyrant known as restlessness and I regained my focus and concentration back. This magical journey has led me through a phase of self-discovery and I am still a part of it.
Every time I pen down my thoughts, I feel like I am entering this paradise, where I am just myself, where the world around me is mine, where I am just a free spirit. All the poems and short stories I started writing were like angels in my life bringing me the pleasure and happiness I always yearned for. The source of light which guided me from the pit of darkness was writing. Writing is just not an art but a school where I am discovering myself, where my dreams come alive. It is where I find solace and I know it would be where I will find myself fully discovered.
I am participating in the Writing Contest: How Writing Has Positively Influenced My Life. Hosted by Positive Writer. -
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